A friend in need is a friend indeed

Friend... how would you define this word? Having a bunch of good friends whom you can enjoy with or a person who doesn't leave you in thick and thin situation in life? It could be anything. Depending upon the people you meet in your life you will surely have different meaning of this word FRIEND. My personal experience didn't have much of a good news about this word, pretty bad scenario I went through. People would say time changes people so you need to change accordingly. I don’t think that is a good way. If you meet someone and become friends, I think it’s better to give some respect to the relation. Frankly speaking I never passed by any of those who people say you can trust your life with. I don’t blame anyone of my friends because of that. May be there was problem from both the sides or many I was wrong may I expected more from a friend. Expected to stick around and have the same friendship in long term. Well I think my expectation was too much for them. Well I am here to share some of my feelings..!! 

I am a very shy, reserved person. I never used to go up and speak to any one new in the crowd. But people usually like me when I do mingle. There was times when I used to sit in the corner of the class and when my classmate used to come up and speak to me. They were nice people warm hearted sweet caring persons. I don’t mean I had bad experience all the time. I do happen to make good friends but because of school changed we split up.  All are closed to my heart I don’t really show it them may be that why I don’t know. I love them all whole heartedly and I do miss them too. But as you grow up it’s really hard to find true friends, people used others for their own ways. Once that is done they don’t really care about the so-called friends they make in their life in their past. Life teaches you a lot of lessons. It depends on you whether you want to learn it or not. Every turn in life teaches you lessons. I have learnt my lesson in life. Don’t open your heart too much people will mistake it for a garbage can. Don’t expect trust from cheap people it is a very expensive. My past friends in life taught me lessons to be mean and careless to others. They would say it is just the way of life and that is how you will survive. I don’t believe in those may be it works for them but being truthful to me and being honest to my heart is more important than anything else. They do hurt me but I will find my way out. I know one day they will surely think of me once and surely talk about me. That they won’t have any bad words to utter about me. 

Love love

Love is the one word which has taken me to another world. As a kid i always wondered what exactly that would be? But i knew i will meet someone in my life which will change everything in my life, who will sweep my feet off the floor. Love is really strange and gives a tingly feeling you can not stop. People say you are lucky if you fall in love once in your life time. Some says you fall in love only once in your life. Other would suggest love is everywhere its just the matter of realizing with time. I don't know about others but for me love was when i saw him for the first time in my life. I was pretty young yet i knew he was the one. I felt it right there my whole world changed in the same very moment. I asked myself couple of times why did i fall for this guy? Honest answer i don't have any specific answer to it, yet i knew from my heart he was the one. He was different from any other guy I ever met. It was the most pleasant evening of my life. Nobody can take that away from me not even him. I don't know whether he knew or not but out lives changed from that evening onward . The innocent laughs, short meetings after college has brought us so closed i didn't realize when did i give away my heart to him. I have surrendered to him totally. The first kiss of our love as sudden and surprising, i was looking at his eyes i could see the deep down sea of love, i gave up in his arms. I felt so complete with him, my heart so light since then. There is a saying if someone is there in your heart is lighter but if its empty it so heavy you cant lift or bear the pain. Whole of my college friends always old me it wouldn't last long but touch wood, its been longer than all have expected. I am hoping for more surprises. I wanna have kids and grow old with him. When i say he is different i meant different in all the way different. He doesn't show much of his love. His practical and smart, he doesn't believe in all the fairy tales and the lovey dub-by thing. He is firm with his words and actions. But me, being a girl always wanted those stuff but i look the other way around he is perfect for me. I have seen everything with all he romance and all but once it gets over the relation gets over. It has been more than four years we have seen all the ups and downs and the tensions and the jealousy. I believe there stages in every relation. the first stage would be all the passions and love and excitement and then comes the adjustment and understanding and last but not the least getting used to each other.
Love shouldn't be a single sided when you are in a relationship. single hand can never make sound when you clap. I am so lucky to have him in my life. all the time its not smooth but love is around so things goes fine. All i ma trying to say is don't be afraid of falling in love and experimenting all kind of love. Things are always not good or doesn't turn out to be the way we want. if we are sure what we want then we surely will get what we want. believe in yourself believe in love and keep your heart open. Love hurts but it s the most wonderful creation of God.